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unintentionally get annoyed uhhhhh
At times, I want to be alone Getting away from friends and acquaintances alike Leaving behind communicative means And be just by myself Just for a while But no, my mum will freak out the moment big time. Like, seriously, I didn't answer her message in one minute she'll freak out, calling all of my friends and stuffs like that. I'm not exaggerating, this is true. I won't lie about this. I bet she'll even call the police, interpol whatsofuckingever in one hour. Oh my god I'm easily irritated when it comes to this topic. I didn't even want to rant about this originally, I don't know how I came to this. Dearest mum, I have a chronic paranoia so don't worry you bet your ass I will stay away as far as humanly possible from all kinds of dangers. Geez. I'm really, really REALLY ANNOYED at this. I mean, it isn't even that case right now, but only by thinking about this really fucking annoyed me. LIKE SERIOUSLY ANNOYED ME. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK MAN. I feel so chained. So fucking chained. I know it's normal for parents to worry about their children but AT LEAST LET ME OFF THE CHAIN PLEASE? Oh my god, why do I have to be chained. I'm always looking jealously at other kids who are trusted by their parents. And their parents are less paranoid. I never had fun, y'know. As a kid, I never went to a beach, never went out of the town, never rode a roller-coaster. My parents never brought me to play, swim and all other fun things. Yes they brought us overseas, but omfg we were just ushered around in shopping centers. And now I think my mum is trying her hardest make up for it. But, I just feel it's a tad bit too late. I think. I know it sounded wrong, especially I'm her child, and she's my mum, I should probably not say that. But it's just hard for me, okay. There's a limit to the people I can be close to and genuinely laugh with. I'm sorry, that's just..me. Edit: wow I must be a psychic. Yep. I'm indeed getting ultimately very really fucking annoyed with my mum right now. Like what the fuck. Why. Why must you force the things I don't like to do? LIKE WHY THE FUCK? WHY? WHY IS IT THAT EVERYTIME WE GET INTO A DISAGREEMENT IM ALWAYS AT THE WRONG PARTY AND MUST FUCKING APOLOGISE FIRST AND MUST ADHkaFHDSif yues ADMIT IM WRONG EVEN IF IM NOT EVEN REMOTELY WRONG I JUST HAVE MY OWN OPINION OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT THE FUCK REALLY AODJur s tgf eyovi I NEED TO SLAM SOMETHING DONW OR I MIGHT EXPLODE FROM ALL THIS ANGER NO I WON'T FUCKING APOLOGISE, I'M NOT EVEN RWONG OMFG NO NONONONONO NOT EVERYTIME YOU SULK YOU'LL WIN NONONONO YOU BETTER FUCKING LEAVE MY DAD ALONE AND YOU BETTER NOT FUCKING PICK A FIGHT WITH HIM JUST BECAUSE YOU CANT GET ME TO DO WHAT YOU WANT OFUCKINGKAY? NONONO GROW THE FUCK UP OHMYFUCKINGGOD PLEASE OH MY GOD I KNOW I FUCKING KNOW SHUT THE FUCK UP CONSCIENCE NONONO THIS IS NOT CALLED FUCKING CARING ITS CALLED FUCKING CORNERING ME TO MAKE ME FUCKING FEEL GUILTY ITS CALLED FUCKING PESTERING ME AROUND I WONDER HOW IT'D BE LIKE WHEN I FINALLY HAVE WORK WILL IT BE oh god why am i not more like other people who enjoy getting showered with attention and getting the life wrung out of them by constantly being pestered around? sorry for the caps lock Labels: personal |