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20131007
Sometimes, you don't know how lucky you are. This statement, I'm aware, is very general; meaning: it has a wide area of meanings. But to me, it has a specific meaning right now. *sigh* You know, I'm at this age where I think it's just not appropriate for me to worry over trivial things. There are a shitload (wow shitload is actually a grammatically correct term?) of 'important' things I should care about; namely my future. What I want to do, what I should do, what I'm capable to do..what are the plans, the backup plans, the backup backup plans..what I should do to get there, what to prepare, who to impress, who to make contact with, and other bullshit like that. (whoa really, bullshit is also not underlined?) I'm just..not ready for this. I know I should be, or at least should be almost ready and have started preparing (especially since I live in the typical asian environment in which everyone has known what they'll be doing since they're 3 years old), but I'm not. If you ask me to imagine my future, I would say having an office job, living in a nice quiet small apartment. (Honestly, I'm barely in the first semester and I've already been thinking about what I should do if I were to be fired from the company I would work at in the future with no cushion cash/impending available job offered) Ah screw this. I don't want to feel confused tonight. Anyway, I've started watching danisnotonfire on youtube. Dude's funny, most of what he said is very easy to relate to for me. I'm suddenly very tired and sleepy. So yeah I'm going to stop writing now. I know this is such a weird post but oh well. Have a good night. P.S. Halloween shift is coming, I hope I have enough energy to deal with it. *sigh* okay I won't bitch about it since it's my own choice. Labels: personal |