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Hey. Question: Have you ever had days where everything just sucks? Days when nothing feels right any more? You know, days when everything feels so wrong that you try to turn away from the bad things to seek some solace through the little good things in your life but fail miserably? Those days that you couldn't find the solution for your source of headache. Yeah, those days when everything just seem to suffocate you and push you to the edge until you don't even know what to do any more? Not even running away? Probably? Well, we all do feel that once in a while, don't we? Yeah, those days when there's no one who would lend their ears to you and just listen to you, not even for a second. However, there might be a handful of people whom you had in your mind who might willingly offer their shoulders for you to lean on but you just...hesitate, because you think you might obstruct their life, pulling them backwards, or perhaps annoy them with your incessant, useless, minuscule problem. Yeah, they were so wonderful that you feel so worthless to bother them with your pathetic sob story. Or maybe you hesitate out of fear, fear that those people don't really care as much as you thought they would be. Or at times, those people just arrive too late. Those burst of emotions had flickered and calmed down to a long-term small flame of negativity, effectively leaving scars on you. Or, you just are not good at telling stories, because you're so used to listening. When you open up your mouth to try to pull out whatever it is that is bothering you, you got nothing. Suddenly, you're at lost of words. It was as if you had never learnt to talk at all. The moment when you wanted to say anything you realised how pathetic and stupid it was, the thing that bothered you. And so you just smiled and said, "Oh it was nothing." Nothing. Even though it bothered you for days, months, or maybe years; never mind that, it was nothing, after all. Been there, done that. It will pass. Don't give up. I feel you, bro.  |