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Hey. I'm writing today. Nope, it's not that I have something to complain or whine about. ...just writing :) First of all, I haven't signed up for my degree programme yet. I know, I suppose to have done that since like a month ago. My friends had. I procrastinate, yeah that's why. But I suppose that's normal for your average teenager, right? ...wow. I just realise that this is my last year of being a teenager, and I will be spending the first half of it procrastinating and stuffing myself with snacks. Swell, right? Really, what have I done so far? I couldn't really pin out anything... Well, to compensate with my inactivity, I'll just say that there are some differences that I realise about lately. My parents seek me for advice, sometimes. It's not that I'm wise or anything, but well maybe they see me as an adult now? That I'm more responsible than the person I was before? ...perhaps. It's just that I'm scared of what I said, I mean yeah it's not like they're going to do something base solely on my words, but still...I'm afraid to be the fuel of mistaken choices.. I actually analyse myself more lately to see if I'm actually a steady person. I don't want to be an indecisive person, y'know. I want to have my opinions and not be easily swayed around by others' views and judgement. And then, I also realised that I haven't actually treated my friends as well as they have been treating me all along. Yeah, I kinda suck at being a good friend, but I reached a realisation so it's a good start...right? I will try to treat them better because I truly love them, I'm nothing without them. Why now? Maybe because I, like many others, didn't cherish something until it's gone. I hope it hasn't gone yet. I hope it's only a "I'm taking a break from you because I shower you with love and care but you treat me with your coldness, apathy, and indifference and I won't come back before you change" kind of leave. Trust me, it's not that I don't care about you, it just was hard for me to express my emotion. I'm sorry for that. I sincerely apologise.. Argh, there were originally a whole lot more of things I'd like to talk about but I'm blanking out right now out of the blue. So...on another note, I picked up a series of youtube videos called "The Lizzie Bennet's Diaries" Yep, you're not mistaken, that name indeed sounds familiar to you, who have read Pride and Prejudice. The series is a modern interpretation of that book and I personally think it's really really well made! Well, I think the first few videos are kinda dry but it gets better. The characters are absolutely adorable (I need to stop using 'really'). I haven't read the book though so my opinion may differ from yours. Edit: Replaced it with a whole playlist XD Most videos only last for less than 5 minutes. I have been watching since 7pm and I'm now on my 49th video~ So, bye for now :D Labels: findings, personal, videos |