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Hey, so, I've been thinking. Commitment. It's a single word, with only three syllables. The spelling of it isn't that difficult either. Nor is it a hard word to define. But yet, I feel it hold such a great meaning in it. A simple word, though, it still felt as if I need to spend forever to merely understand its concept. Up until now, I had never been required to 'commit', at least not to a certain degree of seriousness. I tried to imagine it: the verb, the action and everything I need to do and give up in order to produce something equivalent with the word. I honestly did try, to form some sort of image and scenario in which the existence of said word is needed and is really in effect. The mere thought of it isn't appealing to me, at all. I'm repelled by it. Slightly frightened, even. The present me doesn't feel ready for such a big thing yet, I think. Heck I'm not even sure what I'm ready for now, I'm just beginning to thread on the bits of reality. There are still many, many things I don't understand, and I...don't even know if I want to. Yeah right. When the time comes, I'm sure I'll be forced to. Why should I worry now? Labels: personal |